Trusting Doubt ~~ William C. Green
Thomas answered Jesus, “My Lord and my God.” From John 20:19-31
Thomas is no more of a doubter than the other disciples – or most of us. But he has to find out. The risen Jesus shows his hands and side to the gathered disciples. They were assured. Thomas wasn’t there and wanted proof. When Jesus appears again he doesn’t rebuke Thomas but offers to let him touch the wounds of his body. Thomas then exclaims, “My Lord and my God!”
“There lies more faith in honest doubt, believe me, than in half of the creeds,” wrote Alfred Lord Tennyson. Unless it’s simply acquiescence or blind trust, faith involves caring enough to want to see the truth fro one-self. They doctor may tell you a close loved on is doing well after emergency surgery. But her words aren’t enough. You would want to see with your own eyes.
It’s hard to think about Thomas because he dares to bring doubt into our lives of faith. But did he doubt – do we – just because we’re ornery or don’t care? Or could it be the opposite?
How many of us struggle alone with deep questions because we’re afraid of how others might react to our doubts? Maybe we can make sure doubt gets expressed and doesn’t remain suppressed in church and spiritual life. Learning from Thomas, maybe we can claim doubt as an expression of faith and even love.
PRAYER: Inspire me to trust my doubts and not hide them, O God, trusting in the spirit of the rise Jesus. Amen.
God Is Still Speaking: 365 Daily Devotionals, ed. Christina Villa (Cleveland: The Pilgrim Press, 2013), 7-8.